Oh lord, I had a few eventful days. And not the positive kind…
You who follow me on Instagram have an idea of what has been going on, but it’s way more complicated than what I have been able to tell you. I haven’t really decided on how to handle the situation yet. At first, I was really upset, but now I’m just really angry. I will tell you more about what happened later, as soon as I have got all my thoughts and feelings in order.
Add a bit of stress-induced stomach pain and other bits that just comes with life and it hasn’t been the best start of the week. So that’s why the Monday post appears today, on a Tuesday.
As usual, when I feel overwhelmed, a switch flips in my head and I become weirdly rational. I have learned to step outside of my emotions to be able to look at a situation from the outside. It was a coping mechanism from my childhood that wasn’t ideal. But it has been incredibly useful to have that skill as an adult. Sometimes I just need to shield myself from my own emotions to be able to think clearly.
A friend of mine wrote something that really hit the spot today on Instagram. She wrote, “Don’t waste more than 5 minutes on being upset about something that won’t matter in 5 years”. Our time and energy are valuable and we easily waste them on whoever screams the loudest. When we really should be spending it on who deserves it or what makes us happy.
This is my week’s goal, affirmation, vision, and dream
My mantra this week – “Is this really what I want to focus on right now?” When I find myself in a bit of a storm. I close all my doors and hold on to what really matters. Like Ace, Garth, friends, and family. As soon as my thoughts start wandering off, I make sure to pull them back to what actually matters in my life.
My affirmation this week – “I know who I am”. Its easy to believe other people when they are trying to tell us who we are. We tend to take aboard criticism and blank the good stuff. It’s especially bad when the criticism isn’t constructive or coming from a good place. Then it’s really important to have a deep sense of knowledge of who we really are. I know who I am and what I stand for, no one else knows this better than me.
My goal this week – To ride out a bit of a shitstorm and decide what I want to do about it. I’m very much the victim in this situation. But that doesn’t mean I have to see myself as one. I can turn this into something positive, and that’s exactly what I’m planning to do.
My dream this week – At the moment I’m dreaming of being able to have a proper conversation with Ace. He can communicate, but mainly trough gestures, moods and by the fact that I know him so well. He knows 5-6 words, but you can only get so far with “Mamma, Daddy, bye bye, blomma (flower in Swedish), Ace and spoon”. I know it will happen soon, but I’m a bit impatient. I have a feeling he is going to be such a fun little character.
My vision this week – A good sized wardrobe with clothes I really love. A lot bought second-hand and the rest bought for me by me as a reward for certain milestones and achievements. No items are surplus and I use all the clothes. As soon as I feel “done” with something, I sell it on. I’imagening an organic wardrobe that grows and moves with me and my life.
My focus this week – Freinds and family. Nanna is in town, and so is John and Debbie. All of Aces godparents are in the same country for the first time ever. I’m also going to try to meet up with Gia for some girl talk.
The event of the week – Tomorrow we got another school tour. It’s a school I really like, so I’m hoping it’s as good as I’m expecting.
The lesson from last week – Life goes up and down. In the end, that’s just how it’s meant to be. When everything seems stable and easy, something will happen that will turn things upside down. Most of the time bad stuff in some weird way always bring good stuff along with it. I believe in some kind of cosmic balance. When something negative happens, a positive event is just around the corner.
The everyday luxury this week– We have booked a lovely stay for the weekend of my birthday and we are also looking at a holiday in Feb/March. Right now we are choosing between Thailand, the Maldives, and the Caribbean.
My inspiration this week – I got this book called “The lifechanging magic of not giving a fuck” at home. I only pick it up now and then to read a chapter of two. It’s not a book that is going to change my life. But it does give me perpective when I need it. I use it in small doses when I feel the need of giving fewer fucks.
What’s your goals, affirmation, vision, and dream this week?